Wednesday, May 7, 2014

To See Nothing#99

I’ve heard—the hardest part of looking at oneself is seeing nothing.  Have you felt this?  You look at yourself through your eyes and heart and there is something there.  Isn’t there?  Is not something looking back at you either physically or mentally?  What is this thing which desires to see and be something?  Are you identifying with it now?  Is there not something there that must have a purpose, desires and security?  How will you live without it, you ask?  Can you?  Have you ever inquired if this reflection has value, need or is just fearful of having no real purpose without its dreams, culture etc.?

It’s like the boy at the hospital who didn’t see his reflection in the mirror and while his parents kept telling him that, “There is always something there of value and purpose; you just have to look hard.”  But the boy didn’t listen to them, he didn’t think of anything beyond himself, he didn’t want to see or be anything beyond the “now”.  He would always say, “No, there is nothing to be fearful of with the “now”.  There is nothing there.”  The parents would say to the doctor that the boy is ill and that he speaks of madness and surely must be in pain.  After listening to the boy, the doctor found him to have no illusions about life while he prescribed further tests and ordered the parents back to their cells for more treatment.  In protest, the elders demanded the boy stay with them, but the doctor replied, “You always forget, he’s free and just visiting.”

Monday, May 5, 2014

Saying the Necessary #97

I’ve heard—there are times when it is wise to say what is necessary rather then what is expected of us.  You see?  Because what is expected is already known, tradition, and respected so we’re told.  But that which is expected is of the past, that which clings to its own making as it looks the other way from directness, fact and resolve.  You see this, don’t you?  You may hear, “I love you” but really need to hear, “we don’t get along anymore.”  Which is more important is relative, but is just as necessary for the sake of the other, however, that may be.  It isn’t for us to judge what that is.  Are we afraid to hear the, so called, truth of the matter or just what you want to hear?...It’s safer that way, isn’t it?  To not get ones feelings hurt?  Doesn’t the ego and image selfishly want to keep the relationship under its control and on this secure path?  It’s like getting slapped once, just once for that day and it’s over, then you think “It hurt once, now it’s over.”  But to get slapped everyday and not know when the last day will be?  Why do we put up with it?  What makes us say “I love you” when it should be, “I don’t love you?”  Sure, there are layers of emotional responses and so forth, but think on this—deep down underneath that “I love you” is your courage watching in doubt.  We’ve all heard it screaming, “Why didn’t I say this and not that!?!” Listen to your courage, which is battling fear, say what is necessary once and live with courage, instead of what is expected over and over with a heavy heart.