Wednesday, May 7, 2014

To See Nothing#99

I’ve heard—the hardest part of looking at oneself is seeing nothing.  Have you felt this?  You look at yourself through your eyes and heart and there is something there.  Isn’t there?  Is not something looking back at you either physically or mentally?  What is this thing which desires to see and be something?  Are you identifying with it now?  Is there not something there that must have a purpose, desires and security?  How will you live without it, you ask?  Can you?  Have you ever inquired if this reflection has value, need or is just fearful of having no real purpose without its dreams, culture etc.?

It’s like the boy at the hospital who didn’t see his reflection in the mirror and while his parents kept telling him that, “There is always something there of value and purpose; you just have to look hard.”  But the boy didn’t listen to them, he didn’t think of anything beyond himself, he didn’t want to see or be anything beyond the “now”.  He would always say, “No, there is nothing to be fearful of with the “now”.  There is nothing there.”  The parents would say to the doctor that the boy is ill and that he speaks of madness and surely must be in pain.  After listening to the boy, the doctor found him to have no illusions about life while he prescribed further tests and ordered the parents back to their cells for more treatment.  In protest, the elders demanded the boy stay with them, but the doctor replied, “You always forget, he’s free and just visiting.”